Somewhere Between...

Somewhere in the middle of the chaos I have found my life and I am completely happy and comfortable saying I am Victoria Wilcox. There is a little section in this called labels for this post every single time you post there are labels you can place on your post on blogger. However I have not been doing it lately, simply because I am Victoria Wilcox and I am a label free girl.

Somewhere between the last post and now. I graduated. I am officially done with High School and on to things such as college. However upon leaving High School I get this little feeling inside of me that's awkward. I don't really know how to explain it but it's like everything is different and seeping in all at once there is over stimulation and people coming at you in all directions but you know the best part about right now? Is that I am getting to live it. I am getting to say I am a High School graduate. I get to continue my education on to college and I have lived for 18 years. For some these seem like simple tasks, however if you were the girl who was sick for days on end all through high school and got a label attached to your name for being in a wheelchair, being in ICU, or being shipped off to a hospital, or best of all the Lyme Walk that has been a success for two years in a row. Getting to graduate seemed like a long far off task that may not be accomplished within the "normal" four years at high school much less just making through the week. It opens my eyes a little to think that my daily struggle was not the test coming up the next day but making it to the next day. I continue to thank God for all that He has done within me and the strength that has been provided throughout all of this. Yet there is still a pain that comes with all that has passed. However- I am excited! I am pumped and ready to move on. I am ready to be all that God has planned for me. You will be reading more about everything this summer I plan on posting more now that I have some more "free time" but it's not really free I just miss documenting things because things are getting lost in my mind...

Life has been a little crazy lately and I would be crazy to say that it hasn't been a struggle sometimes to step back once in awhile. However I am seeing great progress with treatment, and the faithfulness of prayer and I have confidence that my fight can ultimately be won and not return through God. I really would like to get my testimony that was recently recorded posted on my blog so that it can be seen by all of you! Hopefully it is soon to come. Anyways here is some of the going's on in my life. Take it or leave it, however surely if you take it you will leave it enough to let it stay upon the page. :)

The night after I graduated, well just hours after I graduated really. Our Senior class had an event titled Project Graduation. It is a way for parents to keep an eye out on their children for which is kind of the last real night their students are within their grasp enough to do so. Although in our household the rule has always been "if you're under our roof, you play by our rules". We did tons of cool and fun stuff and there was a relaxation chair that you could sit in for 8 minutes and "relax" containing virtual reality type stuff. However upon waiting 2 hours it was a disappointment but still really awesome. There was hypnosis and there were some really goofy and cool things that happened with that. The night ended Sunday Morning at 6 am and I was ready to sink into bed at that time. It was a long night but it was fun. It was bittersweet saying goodbye and hugging everyone. There are some people that I got to know better that night and I wish I could have gotten to know them better when I had the chance. There are others that I have known since I was 2 and I am excited to see where they go in life! Summer is unfolding and I am ready to see what else is in store.

Monday, yesterday I went to Roberts Wesleyan College. A school I am happy and content to call
"home" it was kind of student orientation and it was really fun! I met some awesome people and everyone was so kind and supportive. I haven't been sure about this college and it has been a major God thing that I am going but I am trusting that God wants me there through a lot of prayer and confirmation. I have really been gripping my faith through this transition period. So despite the cow tongue toss and the drink that I drank that has made my throat hurt all day. I love the campus and the people and cannot wait until the fall! Even though it's going to be crazy it's going to be worth it. I ask that you join me in prayer as I enter college this fall- I realized today after being intimidated with many of the facts about college life this will be the first time I have been a "full time" student in 4 years! The last time I attended a "normal" school day for a whole year was around my 8th grade year in Middle School. However Freshman year wasn't as bad as Sophomore, and Junior year and Senior year was lighter than them. I find that the challenge I will be facing may be different than the other freshmen setting foot in the dorms on August 28th however I do not see this as an obstacle but yet an advantage. I have faced trials and learned to persevere despite anything that was handed to me. So the intimidation of college may face me but it will not defeat me.

The simplicity of a summer morning in silence just a book and you is quite lovely. So serene and silent. I am going to miss the mornings perched on the driveway just reading. That's all. Just reading.

Emotion of a High School graduate

Speechless.
Melancholy.
Overwhelmed.
Tense.
Excited.
Calm.
Tearful.
Successful.
Relaxed.
Done.
Completed.
Smile it's over.

Monday and Tuesday are my last days of school, for those of you who asked I will be attending Roberts Wesleyan College in the Fall for nursing. If I have neglected to talk to you or call you please know I will be in touch after the end of this year. It has been an incredibly intense end of the year and things have been quite full... Graduation party next weekend!

Featured on another blog

Hey everyone it's a huge honor to say that my blog is being featured on another blog. This woman is a wonderful person and had contacted me a couple of times about being featured. Even without posting everyday I am still somehow "good" enough to be featured here.

Today is my last Friday in High School and senior day for all of the Seniors! All of the hard work and perseverance has paid off in ten fold.

It's crazy how fast time has traveled. It seems like yesterday I was in 6th grade and we were "graduating" from elementary school. My class was the last 6th grade class to go through our school district as 6th graders in an elementary school since then they have changed it up a little and now we have an intermediate school.

With summer drawing near I plan on using this blog more frequently. I would love to continue to write as I begin my college experience. It's something that I honestly cannot wait for and am scared to death about all at once. I will be around.

Traveling

It seems that every time we set foot into a trip, it's for a doctors appointment these days. In the last 4 years I haven't missed school for skipping if ever. I think this may be the very first time I have missed due to a trip that wasn't medical.

We're off to Washington D.C. this weekend to see my cousin Mike get married to his fiancee Pam. We're staying in the same hotel that the inaugural ball was at. I feel honored to be a part of their special day. We have all been talking and thinking about this special day for a year now. Pam just seems like another cousin to me and I am pretty sure that it will be a great success. So finals week is next week and off I go on vacation for 3 days. Be back sometime Sunday!

A Season of Change

When the ride speeds up is it exciting and exhilarating or is it a wish to slow down. I have been nearing the end of my Senior year it has been a weird twist of events. The walk was Sunday and it was a bittersweet moment. As I got up to speak something hit me that this may be the last time I see some of my friends at an event like this.

It makes me wonder, if they are back in town will they still come to the walk next year? Does it mean a lot to the hearts of my friends like it did me? I have been really thinking about how I can be a better person to those around me and after the last few months I am noticing a lot of things I must change. This whole season is one of which I am trying to turn over a new leaf and it is making me wonder, what if today is really the last day I see them. Is this the impression I am going to leave?